Sacred Pages (Sample #1)
- Vanessa Drake
- Apr 27, 2023
- 6 min read
Please find below an example of a previous reading I conducted for a client many months back, this is not her real name, but will give you a good idea as to what to expect from your reading. Sophie was incredibly pleased (to my delight) with her reading, big love to you girl <3
Sophie, USA
Your life was fairly ‘peaceful’, in the sense that you knew what to expect out of your days. I don’t think your life was necessarily mundane/monotonous, I get a feeling that you were in a period of soft satisfaction and at peace with what your life was like. Until this person came in (I’m using the Wisdom of Avalon deck and this guy is clearly in this reading, represented as The Grail Knight). His presence is definitely purposeful and by no means a ‘chance’ meeting, your souls had planned to collide in December, and his presence gave disruption to your ‘peaceful’ days - he brought excitement, I’m imagining you growing a field of flowers. Tending to them everyday and expecting/knowing they would all grow at the same pace - because that’s what is normal. Until one day you looked across your field of flowers and noticed a bright, tall sunflower so high up and shining strong above the heads of all the other flowers. That’s him.
You’re represented by the High Priestess. I thought I’d let you know that this card came out as I feel it as further clarification that this reading is meant for you tonight.
You’re strong. You’re strong because you’ve been through some heart wrenching pain, that I believe you still dwell upon today. I feel as if you remember all the experiences which tore your heart apart to make it as strong as it is today, however I don’t sense complete healing from these experiences. You still carry them in your mind. There’s something that you haven’t let go of.
I feel like you’re a very sensitive soul, maybe you have empath qualities. You are definitely connected to source energy, I wouldn’t be surprised if you have 12th house and 8th house placements in your birth chart. Relationships - platonic or romantic - are important to you, but there’s something stopping you from achieving full enjoyment from them.
Ah, I understand. It is your own strength that hinders you from receiving in relationships. I want you to think - when this person showed up out of the blue in your life, did you have any revelations about yourself/lessons that you learnt around this time?
I feel like there's certain situations you still think about in your mind from your past, and I sense you’re an innocent and very beautiful soul - you don’t blame the people in your past for what happened, if anything you blame yourself. Whether for not knowing any better, or for not making the ‘right’ decisions at the time. Somewhere within you, you do not think that you are worthy. Whether worthy of love, of good things, of relationships - you have a core wounded belief within you that is preventing you from entirely receiving what is meant for you.
You need to forgive yourself. Whatever this situation that happened in the past, it wasn’t your fault. This situation could’ve involved a masculine man. Traits of his can include - artistic, creative, passionate, strong willed, fiery. Whatever this situation was, it left you feeling like you are not deserving of good things - whether a conscious or subconscious belief, it has affected your life to this day. Have there been many occasions in your life in which you possibly self-sabotaged a ‘gift’ from the universe (such as a job, a friend, a relationship, an opportunity - no matter how small or big) because in your heart you felt deep down that you didn’t deserve it? Or not necessarily that you didn’t deserve it but you are still scarred from these past conditionings which molded your actions to represent the belief that you don’t deserve these ‘good things’ - perhaps you tend to think other people are better than yourself. I may be reaching far here, but perhaps this past situation involved a third party? Forgive me if I am wrong but perhaps you were involved in a relationship in which you were not the only woman, and you became aware of this eventually and this birthed the core wound in you along the lines of ‘unworthiness’ and ‘undesirable’.
They’re saying that you call the shots now. You can have whatever you desire. The cycle of pain and retreating back into yourself to heal is over. Whatever happened in the past is finished with, and you’re being offered a new beginning for you to unleash all of your passion and creativity upon that you’ve been holding back all this time.
I think you keep seeing the High Priestess because your angels and guides want you to see how magical, powerful and incredibly deserving you are of all of these good things. And you just need to forgive yourself for not allowing yourself to be in the mode of accepting the blessings the world has for you.
I see such a strong contrast of energies - on one side there’s deep pain and a sense of failure and on the other there is pure joy and happiness. I’ve even sensed a twin flame/soulmate connection, or just the union of two souls to build such a beautiful foundation. I strongly feel there is some pain, that I can’t quite determine what exactly it is, that you need to heal from and truly let go of. Most of the time, the deepest pain that we hold is against ourselves. We are often our own harshest critics - I sense you have a very soft, loving and forgiving soul but you don’t give yourself half as much love/forgiveness that you so easily give to others. Maybe it’s because you’re such a wise soul that you find it very easy to understand where other people are coming from and their actions so you forgive them, but when it comes to yourself it’s a sense of ‘I should have known better’.
I don’t quite know how to put it into words, but somehow you’re keeping yourself entrapped. There’s some kind of belief or perspective that you have so strong in your mind/beliefs that the longer you hold onto it the bigger the chance of you hindering your progression in the areas of life that you desire. Are you afraid of letting go of a certain belief? I feel like there's a mindset, perhaps that you’ve had for so long and you find it almost impossible to lose your belief in it because if you do shift your mindset it will change everything in your life - subconsciously I think you fear this. I think there’s a subconscious part of you that has had a ‘toxic’ belief about yourself for so long that it is almost a lifelong infection that (because you’ve held onto it for so long and have not fully healed) you can’t even feel is foreign to your body anymore. So, now in the present moment because its become such a strong part of your identity and ego, any shift or possibility in removing it means your entire life will change (but for the better) but your ego doesn’t know this - it fears change, so it’s stopping you from letting go of this (whatever ‘this’ is, a belief or core wound) because it means THAT part of you (which you don't need in order to survive anymore) will die.
I feel like this new man in your life is definitely here for a divine reason and you were both always meant to come into union. So there is no need to doubt the purpose of his presence.
You might need some time to yourself for some introspection to figure out what it is that you’re gripping so tight onto that you can’t let go of.
A teaching that came to mind is about making space - when manifesting, you need to make space for the blessings to come into your life, whether mental space (clearing out old thoughts and beliefs which no longer serve your present self) or physical space (for example clearing out clutter and bits that you don’t need in your home to make space for someone you love to move into your life). I feel like, whether in your mind or physically, you need to make space. You are holding too tightly onto something that is just keeping you from moving forwards. There is something you need to cut out to start afresh. I’m not getting a clear depiction or sensation as to what it is from this reading, but I feel like as you are reading these words, you probably know exactly what it is. You’ve probably known for a while.
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